Freak City Soundtrack

Someone has just splash water to my face. I just realized that as a human being, you can not get whatever you want. You can’t ask or beg, and suddenly your wish came true just like a snap of your finger. And it is difficult to keep on our mind that “positive thinking”, is the only way out.

Actually, after I had my breakfasting this afternoon, I felt so sad and put my self in loneliness. Furthermore, when I raise a high volume for my ‘takbir’ mp3 on my portege, tries to feel like at home (get together with your loves one), I’m deeply felt that I am all alone; coz up to now, nobody cares and remember me. Everyone’s there were enjoying their moment with their loves one, not mine. I said not mine. All by my self, and I should keep that it mind!.

A few minutes ago, I had a chat with a good friend of mine, which gave me a wise suggestion, to end my sorrow: “God gave tons of love, bless and mercy for you, that sometimes we never realized. But we felt that He demerit us most of the time”. It is easy for us to forget Him if we were in happiness and became desperate in a hard time. My good friend of mine said that “If you feel that God has giving everything to you, then it is your turn to share His love, bless and mercy to other people too, so other people can feel the same like you did”. But “If someone hurt you, even though you shared everything for them, then we can feel sorry because they were a kind of people who are less love than us”. Less love means that they don’t have lots of love from their families, friends or relatives. So they can not feel when someone has just shared their love to them. 

I felt like a thunder has hit my head off. You know it is so difficult to always have a positive thinking in any situation. I thought that I always made my self as a positive thinker but the fact is I didn’t. I still have to learn how to resignation my hope/wish every time I had one.

Now, I’m so happy since now is just few hours away from Iedul Mubarak (Hari Raya Idul Fitri), and I got this an outstanding advice that made my head high, again. Today I’m going to have my Iedul Mubarak Pray at our Indonesian Embassy. Hopefully, to see many friends and we celebrate together.

And, for those of you who celebrate Iedul Mubarak, deeply from my heart, I would like to say “Happy Iedul Mubarak, minal aidzin wal faidzin brothers and sisters, May Allah gave mercy to us”

My Professors were so insane now. Even though we had finished our Chusok Holiday (Korean Thanksgiving Holiday) for one week, but there’s no such reason for giving us tons of homework, thick articles and warned for the midterm test in few weeks ahead. I should be worry now. I suppose. But I haven’t started read or try to finish my homework yet. While I prefer to share my opinion about the big issue which came this morning and shocked the world.

It is begun this afternoon. I used to watch a Discovery Channel when I had my breakfasting in our Snack Bar. Unfortunately, a friend of mine set the TV on CNN Channel, which they broadcast about this North Korea Nuclear Test. I don’t pay too much attention to the TV since my chicken nugget and fried tofu well much interesting than those stupid nuclear missiles. But my friends were arguing and discussing about this matters, until I saw in the news that North Korea does launch their nuclear test this morning. I think the world has shocked and the superpower countries warned North Korea to stop what they had done. The impact has showed up as soon as they launched their test. Korean Won and Japan Yen was depreciated. And guess what, our Indonesian Rupiah also depreciated. What in the world? We all knew that Rupiah is so weak with any issues. But if these continue, it will become a serious impact to our economy right? Oops, I’m sorry if you hate what I had written now, but sometimes I would like to discuss and share some serious issues. Well, one of my concern on this issue is, hell yeah, I live in less than 500 km radius of this bloody nuclear missile which I should be so worry as other South Korean does.

I don’t know why, but these past two days, the Seoul weather has became mist and fog. It was started yesterday morning (Sunday), when the fog covered almost Seoul and the temperature is chiller than it used to be. I raised a joke to my friends that some possibilities of this fog are caused by the North Korea radioactive and their nuclear weapons. It looks like some silly jokes. But some of them thought it might be true, because three days ago the weather was so clear and quite hot. Since my friends were smart and outstanding students, my joke has become a serious discussion among us. Off course at this time no more jokes than a political theory is being raised.

While they’re arguing each opinion, my mind was set like this. What if, let say, North Korea launch their missile to Seoul. For sure, it will be a massive chaos. But I was thinking that, maybe if the condition has become awkward and people were panic, so there’s no reason for the school not to suspend/close their activity right? It means no class, no lecture, no problem sets, no homework and no mid/final term. Single-handed I laughed. Then I threw my ‘holiday’ opinion in the middle of our discussion. They were shocked but afterwards we were laughing so hard. Again, they agreed with my opinion. And we continue imagine these possibilities.

Holiday. I just want to finish my study as soon as possible, and if there’s a time I would like to explore Korea as much as possible. I wish. Finally, as our discussions were ended yet, I just hope nothing would happen in Seoul.

Gosh, I missed so much people I loved in my hometown. I hope nothing happen with them as well. May Lord bless and keep our land peace. Amin.

Have you ever been ignored by someone you loved? Maybe many of you never had this experienced before. Mostly, some of your love story ends with happiness, right?

This is a story of another friend of mine from Eastern Europe. He shared his doubtful of a girl that he loved. They were not a couple yet. But they used to have a romantic relationship sometimes ago. He thought, since they already had something in common, it is not necessary to make any relationship among them, until he finished his study.

The story started at the beginning of summer. As usual, he called her at least every 2 days, sends her email every day and chat every night. But recently in some occasions he felt that she became so different. She takes quite some time to reply his mail, or puts ‘a busy’ sign in her messenger. When he called her, she seems to be very difficult or cannot be reached at all.

He was confused why she made him like this. He said it will be much better if she just tell the truth or explain to him. He tried to be very pleased and accept any reasons of. He knew that a long distance relationship is bit risky and need an extra understanding among them. But I told him that not every long distance relationship ends with failure. Some of them were survive and live happy ever after too. Well, anyway, he was so frustrated with this extreme condition.

Let me ask you, if you are frustrated, you might or mostly think negatively right? So I can understand how my friend felt now. I did the same too. If I was in his position now, and thought that with no reasons she ignored me somehow. And that is the most I could say, frustrated moment as a man, is being ignored.

Frankly speaking, I didn’t give him any solutions yet. And actually I am not good at this so called ‘love story consultation’ or whatsoever the name is. But people believe and came to me, hoping some advice of their problems. Sometimes when people came to you shared his/her doubtness, all they need is your attention by listening their stories. They need people to hold on, people who can listen and support them at once. For me, I prefer make them happy and laugh by gave them jokes. Not all of those were succeed, since most of my jokes were not funny at all, but at least I can make them smile. Oh, you never knew how happy I am if they were smiling. That is one of the most prestigious I ever had. I loved to make people smile or laughing. That is what I did.

Smile. For some people, it’s the most difficult things to do. But actually with smiling it reduce your stress and pain. Believe me, you should try. Well at least, you could find some funny sites, watching some sitcoms or if you are lucky enough, spent your night with your friends and forget your problems even for a while. Life will be so precious if you enjoy every moment of. And life is so good.

So, what are you waiting for? Smile and make people smile at you =)

What is your favorite sports? Do you play sports? What position likely for you in soccer? Do you like to win a game? I believe all of you familiar with that kind of questions since you were a kid right, so am I. I’m not a guy who have an athlete body, for some reasons, I’m too skinny. So for me doing sports is number 3 or 4 from my top priority list. It doesn’t mean that I dont like sports at all. I went swimming at least once a month, or trying to excercise my self 3 times a week in a gym, or asked my friends for 3 on 3 in a basket ball court. If you ask me about soccer, my favorite position is as a right defender/right back/right wing back. But if we decided to play a real match, I spent most of the time in a sub bench. Does it sounds shame for me? no, not at all. For me doing sports is not always in the field as a regular player, but you have to feel the spirit even though you were in a bench most of time.

I kinda Formula One freak in the past 10 years (don’t ask me when was the first time I love english premiere league hehe). At that time, I really want to became a speed racer, but then I thought a Formula One driver would be so much prestigious, hell yeah it’s money and chicks. It happened since I watched Formula One series regularly, even when I’m not at home. I never miss the live broadcast from the circuit. Sure, I miss three or four times, but I always watched the replay/recorded race. I always enjoyed my time during the race, just like watching soccer, I screamed and laughed. But what I really love is, I can feel the tension of each drivers.

My school mates knew already that I’m a soccer and formula one freak. They called me with many nick names which I couldn’t memorized. So, mostly they asked me who’s playing tonight, which teams, when is the next formula one race will be held, the player transfers, who win the game last week or last year, how many points does the gap between each clubs, why does those driver can not continue the race and so many questions that sometime makes me laugh coz I looked like a guy who really love sports or maybe TV is much better, rather than a student. If you asked me, do we have any homework, when is our mid/final term, have you finish the problem sets already, than I might make myself speechless.

This afternoon, I made my self perfectly comfortable in our dormitory lounge. Since noone watched the TV, so I had fully controled on this lounge. We had a Formula One race series in Shanghai. And I was in the lounge 1,5 hours already because they have the qualification highlights and news before the race, which is very important for me too. One thing that I like from this live broadcast is their TV commercial. It’s so damn creative and smart. I kept myself thought how people in advertisement could be very intelligent and brilliant invented a slogan or trademarks to their clients. I saw many advertisement/commercials which amazed me. Since this is a Formula One live broadcast, so most of of the commercials were came from oil or car companies.

As Michael Schumacher and Ferrari won the race, and yet my favorite driver and team-Kimi Raikkonen and McLaren Mercedes failed to score points, I still fall in love to this sports. Not only race, tensions, speed, hi-technology, chicks, pride and glory that you can feel, but there were also advertisement/commercials who made you think that how these people dominating the formula one in more than 60 years.